Becoming increasingly enraptured by Dark Side of the Moon. Another musical obsession that I can, and will, attribute to theatre; theatre never ceases to broaden my horizons.
How is it possible to do so much and yet not feel like anything’s being done at all. I had THIS breakdown last night, and thankfully I had the awesome guidance of Alicia Santos to get me through my mid-show breakdown. But I still don’t understand. I comprehend that I’m doing a fuck of a lot, but it doesn’t feel like I’m doing anything. This disconnect is tripping up my mind and making me insane. Somehow I’ll make it through, I always manage to at least find my way to the middle at some point.
Two rehearsals a day start tomorrow morning.
So I should be sleeping, but my brain is freaking the fuck out and silently conspiring against any notion of real sleep.
The rest of the night should be interesting…to say the least.
Hopefully I will arise tomorrow a functioning human being, but that remains to be seen.
March, I feel like you’re going to test me. And for once I feel prepared to face it. Brang it on.
Today is passive aggressive day in our theatre. We’re all trying really hard not to show how displeased we are about this process up until now, but we’re all cracking a little bit.
It feels a lot like this:
Which I’ve aptly titled, “You want to commit suicide, and you’re really happy about it” and it’s also the very gif that put David in tears.
Is it weird that I kind of like today? :)
I never expected to even cry, let alone WEEP, while reading Dog Sees God. But Christ all mighty the last scene left me a goddamned mess.
I love when art can leave you feeling feels, even if you never asked for them.
I’m gonna do it. I’m gonna do it. I’m gonna do it.
Scary scary (possibly) life/career changing decision, but I’m going to do it.
And if this goes well at all, I will hopefully also have a working-class job as well, and I’ll be able to move out by next year, or earlier.
I’m really excited to announce that I’ve recently been cast in my first show after college. I’ve been cast in The Maverick Theatre’s (Fullerton, CA) upcoming production of Legally Blonde as Enid Hoopes. That’s right y’all, I get to be a raging feminist lesbian activist machine! Can you dig it? Because I can. I’m super stoked. :)
Yesterday was borderline one of the best days of my life. I sincerely feel blessed and overwhelmed and happy. Yeah, that’s right, I said happy (and I meant it too). :)
I wish for all of my friends to go see this play and support my cast and me. We all are super excited for this. YAY.