Sometimes I look at him and I think of how easy it would’ve been. But then I stop and really think about it and realize that it wouldn’t have been easy at all, because I wouldn’t be happy (not really). And I realize that I’m happier without a relationship that I only long for because I want to be in a relationship, not because I’m in love with him. While it does kind of suck sometimes, as long as everyone I love is happy I can be happy too, and that happiness and that love will find me, and it will be the most awesome love I’ve ever experienced.